Dealing with hate

Imma make this as short as possible because hate is something that I don’t like to get into detail because it keeps me from moving forward and progressing on my projects and personal growth.

So I get hate all the time even though you don’t see it in the comments section of my posts.
What many people do is message me, sending their hate my way without exposing themselves on my pages and feeds. Despite the method, hate is hate.
I often get told that my work is worthless or crap because I don’t use a hella expensive and fancy or have fancy lighting and equipment and when I ask for resources for improving the quality of my work, I get hit with the classic “do it yourself” line.
For future reference, if you comment criticisms on other artists work without giving ways to improve when asked, YOU’S A HATER.

Here’s the thing to those who are wondering why people would criticize my methods and equipment.
I am a student traveling along the path to medicine which means that I have a rather intensive curriculum. This makes it difficult for me to shop for expensive lighting, cameras, and equipment so I work with what I have.

However, like my makeup, I’m working up to the good stuff meaning that I will be improving my equipment and get an actual camera soon but until then, I will continue to use my phone camera.

Moral of the story is to not pay attention to those who hate on your work.
Giving them attention and energy and trying to prove them wrong will only prevent you from improving yourself and advancing with your work. So the next time you come across a hater, just keep it moving and continue on your path to success.



I love full coverage foundation but only when done correctly.
In today’s day and age, thanks to the influence of Instagram, people have taken to the cosmetic stores in search of the fullest coverage foundation in the world in order to achieve the plastic barbie doll look.
There are two things wrong with such a search with the first being that full coverage will not play to everyone’s favor and the second being that barbie’s out and Bratz is in.

Now don’t get me wrong. I LOVE full coverage foundation but only if it works for the person.
Full coverage foundation has the tendency to age a person’s appearance by several years as it can easily settle into fine lines, wrinkles and pores even with the aid of a pore and line filling primer.

In order to avoid this, there are two things to keep in mind.
The first thing to keep a look out for is the coverage of the foundation that you are currently using. If it is extremely full coverage then it would be best to sheer it down with a moisturizer. This will benefit you by moisturizing the face and plumping up the skin, therefore giving you a more radiant and youthful appearance, and will also give save you product as mixing a full coverage foundation with a moisturizer will cause you to use less product compared to using just the foundation alone.
If you do not need the coverage, try using a medium or even a sheer coverage foundation. These allow your natural radiance to shine through, giving you a youthful glow.

The second thing to keep in mind is how you set your foundation.
For those with extremely dry skin, it would be advisable to stay away from setting powders as they will cause the foundation to dry and crack, giving you an aged appearance. If you have dry skin, it would be best to set your makeup with a setting spray as it keeps your makeup in place without drying out your skin.
For those who tend to get oily throughout the day, the best thing to use would be a powder as this will help to absorb the oils that could break down the foundation and cause it to slide around, decreasing the wear time your makeup.

Remember that it is just makeup. Some people apply makeup as a hobby to find peace and relaxation, others want to supplement what’s missing, and the rest just want to go wild and create new and interesting shapes and effects that end up on the cover of vogue magazine
At the end of the day, it is just makeup and there are no set rules.

Depression (Part 2)

Although it took several years for me to bounce back and fight my depression, I was able to fight back and am still fighting today.

Sometimes the world seems gray, lifeless, and hostile but what you need to remember and look forward to are the good things that have happened, are happening, and will be happening.
For me personally the things that help to keep me up are where I am in life, my skills and talents, the people I can confidently call my best friends, and support and love from my family and all those around me. Even small things such as the beauty of nature or a simple song should be taken into account.

Yes I will have to admit that focusing on the positive in life is so much more difficult compared to focusing on the negatives in life but doing so will help you advance in life rather than stay stagnant.

As you can clearly see through these two posts, focusing on the negative is so much easier compared to focusing on the positive in life but doing so will allow you to not only help yourself but also other’s that may be going through the same thing.
If there’s one piece of advice that I want you to take away from me sharing my story of depression, it’s to always look on the bright side, find the silver lining, and remember that it will get better.

Depression (Part 1)

Depression is a subject that I am usually extremely uncomfortable talking about as it is something that stems from deep scars and past memories.

Depression is something that is thought of as overly dramatic and extremely easy to spot. Many people believe that people with depression are often dreary, always talking about how everything is going wrong, and don’t take care of themselves.
While this may be true for some people, many others, including myself, are well versed in the art of hiding one’s depression.
For those who know me, I am often quite bubbly, upbeat, and a rather bright and talkative person, pretty much the opposite of what people think of depression. However, more often than not, I deal with depression which does make it extremely difficult for me to function daily. Simple tasks such as waking up, getting dressed, and even just eating are things that I have to force myself to do more often than not.
Paying attention in my classes, completing homework, and taking exams are tasks that often exhaust me. Hobbies such as playing music, applying makeup, even watching and making youtube videos often feel forced.

I mentioned before that my depression comes from past memories and scars which are experiences and events from my childhood.
There are two main events that my depression stemmed from.

The first of these events involves my issue with self-worth and esteem.
The people responsible were the people from the church that I used to attend. What I would get picked on was the fact that I was academically more advanced compared to the other children that were in the same grade as me. What they would often tell me is that I was extremely annoying because I was talking about sciences while the other kids were talking about the newest Pokemon card deck that they got their parents to buy for them. I would often talk about the newest book that I borrowed from the library while the other kids would talk about the newest video game that they saved up for.

The adults, excluding the elders, were no better than their children as they would often make threats towards me or make condescending statements or jokes about how I was dressed or what I was reading. One incident that I clearly remember was the during my very first mission trip to Taiwan where a group of people from the church were visiting an orphanage. The way that the whole trip was organized was that certain people would be assigned tasks to complete such as cooking or repainting the walls. As much as I was eager to help, I was not assigned a task and when I was approached by the leaders of the mission group on why I was not doing anything, I told them that I was not assigned a task. After hearing this they threatened to kick me out of the group and leave me to figure my own way back to the hotel that we were staying at. I was told that I was rather useless and that it was a mistake to have brought me along to the trip.

The second event was in regards to my self-image and weight problem.
This is a far shorter story as it was an event that was simple and straight to the point.
I was 9 years of age and was attending a program that my violin professor at the time had forced me to join. Being the only male attending the classes, I was often picked on and made fun of just for simply being a guy.
This one occurrence was the trigger to my breaking point.
On one particular day, one of the girls decided to show off the fact that she was capable of performing a split which was rather impressive to someone who was rather stiff at the time.
I commented that I was unable to perform the splits simply because I had never had any formal dance training. The girl made a very simple statement: “You can’t do the splits because you’re too fat.”
This was the line that broke me and caused my downward spiral towards anorexia and bulimia, which to this day I have to fight against.


So as someone who grows a considerable amount of facial hair, I have to shave every two or three days in order to maintain smooth skin for the ideal surface to apply makeup or to relieve myself of the rough and itchy existence that is facial hair.

The way I begin shaving is after taking a hot shower when the shaft of the hairs have been saturated with water and softened.
After getting out of the shower, I pat my skin dry and begin applying a shaving cream.
The thing about shaving cream is that it is applied to provide lubrication between the skin and the blade. My own little personal hack with this step is to use a hydrating lotion or moisturizer. I prefer to use Cetaphil lotion as it is water based, extremely affordable, and allows the blade to glide across the skin. Another product I use every now and then is Ponds cold cream. This is supposed to be used as a makeup remover however it is a very rich hydrating cream which makes it a great product to use in place of products specifically made for shaving. A third and final product that I love to use in place of a shaving cream is a hyaluronic acid gel. This is a thick clear water-based gel that is amazing for the skin and provides quite a slick surface for the blade.

The best way to use all three products is to apply them while the skin is a little moist. This provides additional slip for the blade and further reduces the chance of getting nicks and cuts while shaving.

As for the blades, most people would think that expensive blades with several blades are the best for shaving. In reality, price and blade count do not dictate the comfort and quality of a shave.
Some people may prefer more blades while others like the feel and effect of a single or double blade razor.
Personally, I do not have a preference when it comes to blade count or brand. As a matter of fact, I currently purchase all of my blades from the dollar store where I can get multiple razors with varying blade counts for a single dollar.
My favorites from the dollar store include the six-bladed razor as well as the dual-edged safety razor.
Both razors have given me satisfactory results as my skin was smooth and had little to no razor bumps, cuts, or nicks. Despite this, there was a bit of a learning curve with the safety razor as I had never used one before until a couple of days ago. But struggles aside, both razors were able to perform very close shaves leaving my skin smooth.

As for the popular brands such as Gillette, Bic and the dollar shave club, I do not notice a difference between the quality of the shave when compared to the dollar razors. When it comes to the brand of the razor, it is 100% up to my own personal preference. I currently own several Gillette cartridges and will continue using them simply because I have been using them for several years and find it difficult to part with the brand.

At the end of the day, what you decide to shave with is completely up to you.
I hope that these tips and tricks from my own routine will help you get the closest shaves possible.

Hey everyone

Hi everyone and welcome to my very first post as a beauty blogger.
Here I will be posting everything that I experience in the world of beauty including makeup tips and tricks, holy grails and epic fails, as well as life experiences from every day as well as my modeling and beauty career.

Now that we got the purpose of the blog out of the way, I want to introduce myself.
My name is Jonathan Lee and I am a violinist, at this moment a pre-medical student, a model, and a makeup artist.
I have been playing the violin since age 5 and have continued ever since as it is a means for me to calm and center myself from time to time as you all know that the path of becoming a doctor can be quite stressful at times. Add to the fact that I also plan to add modeling and makeup to my careers and you have the recipe for balding and yelling at the grandkids at age 23.

I understand that most of you probably think that I am wasting my abilities with makeup by going into medical school and that my parents probably forced me to get into the sciences since I was a child. On the contrary, makeup is really just a hobby just like how some artists draw and sketch to relax. The same rules apply to me with the only difference being that other artists draw on paper while my canvas is a person’s face. I am actually quite the nerd with the sciences being my favorite subjects to study and learn about during the quarter or when relaxing at home. I find it quite relaxing as well to learn about how the world works from string theory to astrophysics as well as chemistry and biology.

Since I mentioned makeup and modeling let me tell you how I got into the industry.
I started modeling in August 2017 so around a year before making this post. A good friend of mine and I were talking about modeling one day and how it would be a fun experience for the both of us to try it out, little did I know that she was actually being serious about trying it out. So one day, she signed both of us up for a modeling event and surprised me with the event which definitely caught me off guard and after 30 minutes of persuading me, I finally caved and decided to join her in the event.
We got dressed did our makeup and off we went to get our photos taken which happened to be the most fun that I had in quite a while and ever since then I’ve been modeling.

The story of my makeup is not as joyful or lighthearted as my other stories as it comes from a place of pain and heartbreak.
When I started makeup at age 14, I was dressing up for a Halloween costume party. My parents did not think anything of it at the time as I was just getting dressed up for a party.
However, after they noticed that I was wearing makeup more and more frequently and creating more elaborate designs, they started to question my sexuality.
At age 16 is when I decided to apply as a running start student in Bellevue college where I found out about the LGBT center. This was also the place where I met a man that helped me discover my sexuality and, excuse my corniness, express who I was as a person as up till then I was actively trying to mask my sexuality.
After giving my parents the news a series of events that I will not disclose occurred where, for a long period of time, I was unable to interact with my parents properly. However, after a couple of years, my parents and I were able to come back together and understand what was going on in my world.

So that is a little snapshot of how my past was and what my interests are.
Again I want to thank all of you who have taken the time to read my very first post and hope that you will stick around and see where my journey will take me.

I will see you soon and until then, be the baddie with magick touch.